It is easier not to believe! I wish I could, but thank God, I have had a different experience. My faith has shown me the presence of God. The Lord has carried me through life, only I did not want to admit it. My stubbornness was stronger and the daily individual struggle also, because I always wanted to rely on myself. But then I was then abandoned by everything, so I could see that it is not my ego, but the Lord alone that has done everything. There is someone there. There was always someone there. I can count on him. The Lord answered my prayers. "The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want," Psalm 23. "Therefore I say unto you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be given to you" Mark 11:24. "Ask and it shall be given to you- seek, and ye shall find, knock and it shall be opened" Mark 7:7.